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March 31, 2014

love & death

friends,

good evening and welcome to episode 391! tonight meets us with a few new versions of some recent songs, and finds me wondering (more) about regret and loss and the past. how what's gone is gone. and how it ain't coming back. and the fact that, even if it did, we'd just end up making the same mistakes all over again. circles upon circles. it's foolish to dwell and ruminate on such things. i know. and yet it's hard to control the paths our feelings and dreams insist upon.

i guess this is just to say that i want there to be a way to make things better here and now. i want the feeling of it to dissolve somehow. i want the wisdom without the pain. that's my dream. and i realize the world doesn't work that way. it feels overwhelming for all of us at times. and it just is.

songs don't solve the world. but i'm thankful for their help. it's funny how trying to say things right, even when we keep getting it wrong, can make the world feel a little more hopeful. i don't how it works, but the small steps are very good things.

i hope you'll listen. <3

love,
russell

ps - if you don't already know the music of ron sexsmith, i highly recommend him. this song is a great recent one… and here's a quiet live version.

March 24, 2014

near and far

friends,

good evening and welcome to episode 390!! it's just me again with a few brand new baby songs (+ a few toddlers), and some thoughts about music and life and learning. it's a blessing to have the chance to try. but painful too - esp if (you're like me and) you keep getting things wrong much more than right. it's a humbling self-conscious thing to grow up. but songs help. for which i'm thankful. ;)

i also mention one of my songwriting heroes tonight - jonah matranga. he has a new album out today called - you and me are two. you can listen and support and purchase it -> here. i hope you will!

thank you for being here. <3

really, truly,
russell

March 17, 2014

introspection

friends

welcome to monday and episode 389! this week finds me noticing the (sometimes vast) differences that seem to naturally flow between people. assumptions, perspectives, preferences, expectations, so on. i can't help but wonder how and why the things between us are as they are. seemingly unavoidably. which somehow reminds me of my heroes - yoko ono and j. krishnamurti

i often feel guilty and wrong for wondering about the world and the lives of others, imagining we're similar - when the facts of life seem mostly determined to bludgeon us with the opposite. it feels both sad and hopeful most of the time. a kind of obstinate faith, maybe?? i'm naive. i know. but i still think it's possible for things to be better. and i think trying is worth it. even if/when we never see it change.

i hope you'll listen… <3

love,
russell

ps - this book by yoko is great!

pps - here's something from - krishnamurti. it take some patience to listen, i know. but worth it.

ppps - and, say what you will about yoko's voice… i absolutely love this song.

March 10, 2014

arrogance & time

friends,

tonight finds me in a bit of a strange mood. i've been here for a few days now. wistful. ruminating. regretful. trying to find a balance within and around the past and the future. and somehow find a way to learn from it. an this reminds me of how hard life can be. and that there are beautiful things despite the things that hurt most. and of how we're a part of both. even when we feel the opposite. and even when we wish everything could be another way.

episode 388 is here with all of this at heart. i hope you'll listen.

<3
russell

March 02, 2014

the 2013 top ten

friends,

it's oscar night, and i'm here with my annual list of top ten movies from the previous year. episode 369! if you have time, i hope you'll listen, visit the links, and discover (if you haven't already) the movies linked below. between the lines, i want to apologize to the many beautiful movies from 2013 i haven't yet seen. the value of a list like this isn't so much in the illusion of gradation, but the opportunity to think and explore what moves us and why. together. the improbable/beautiful fact that movies can do this is one of my most favorite things. :)

thank you for being here. truly and sincerely.

the "runners up" (in no specific order):

- emperor - (peter webber).
- the great gatsby - (baz luhrman).
- the perverts guide to ideology - (sophie fiennes).
- philomena - (stephen frears).

the top ten - in descending order:

10 - enough said - (nicole holofcener).
09 - to the wonder - (terrence malick).
08 - the spectacular now - (james ponsoldt).
07 - her - (spike jonze).
06 - the wind rises - (hayao miyazaki).
05 - stories we tell - (sarah polley).
04 - like father, like son - (koreeda hirokazu).
03 - all is lost - (j.c. chandor).
02 - before midnight - (richard linklater).
01 - lore - (cate shortland).

love,
russell

still haven't seen ps - quite possibly missing from this list is sophie huber's - harry dean stanton: partly fiction (as mentioned in earlier episodes). i'm still actively seeking it out… and will see it. more soon.

music ps - for more norway house and kris hauch check out norwayhouse.bandcamp.com